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All my life, wouldn't feel right
Couldnt explain, feeling insane
When its alright, a call is to fight
Ambivalence gets, another backwards regime
And you would sanctify, a murderous game, never again
Collusion breeds disorder, hypocritical fiends constantly
On the boulevard of frozen dreams, life sprung again with unbelievable grace
Whole movements belied by trends, purest motives golden from bliss
And i cant recover all the lust that it gave, like a pool of shame
And youd think we'd have eachothers backs i guess in a fastidious mess
Its a long way home, to the cities ive known, never invested in your promises
Now im lost, with short supplies in, nothin it seems when youve got no regrets
And you would recall all our past mistakes, like they were cigarettes
And you would ignore all the license we took for the saving of face
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I feel so messed up in mind, so left out, makes an unhappy one
I do have time, i dont want time
I do care, i dont want to care
Owning mistakes clears plugs from your stream of thought and benefits everyone
A mild case of cold can balloon into a stroke and bath towels soaking in blood
A meth house is not a place of joy, a blanket of nothing isnt warm
And less of you is my idea of fun, with these toy soldiers harassing everyone
We could get along but that'd be dumb, so instead i live in dread of everything
Lets kick around a funeral drum, and let the kids pick from all that we lost
And do a funny twist, then slit both of our wrists, waiting in disgust for whose at fault
The mexicans, the blacks and all the scum
Everybody else is having too much fun
The separatists, the hindu and the jews
didnt like their look since 1492
An army of the dead is what has come, to torment all our minds til we are one
To Letter leaf, to cheddar, the big bucks
Thank you for breaking into all that i love
Stuck at home and diggin til' im stumped
Thanks to mom for knowin' or id be fuckt
Its coastin from now that im a felon
And hopin' somethins' left of my inheritance
C F C G C
Sure im Lost, but its better than being dead
I sure do give a fuck and that is my problem
I bet yall think that this is a joke
Some off-color game you swear that my mind spoke
Ive never been more serious in my life
Better fix your ways or It is judgement time
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God will walk into the sun
Your whole cage fits everyone
D G
I feel lost and join a fight
Drawn to caves toward midnight
(No one wonders why)
A G
Breath
If you think of me
Black alarm hits your insides
You’re not ready to make up your mind
(Baby if you dont mind)
Breath
If you think of me
I go on til' youre in sight
Wending memories go to die
(Youre the memory i fight)
We're all gonna die
Even in our minds
Breath
If you think of me
If you think of me
If you think of me
If you think of me
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She was the apple in my eye
the stars up in the sky
a ray of sunshine
born secretly in mind
For all of this time
im surprised to find
that it was you,
was only you
D A
Maybe the color of your eye
Or the sparkle in your smile
Please baby stay awhile
And talk in ways now out of style
G D A
Ill bet your friends think im an ass
A moment waiting for your past
A has-been saving for his last
A resolution that will pass
G D A
Because when love is good for nothing
Is when your love is just for you
Certainly had some better days
Being treated like a saint
A golden greyhound at the stakes
Growin' finer with age
Well I havent as of late
When my ass went out of date
And all the homies gone away
To leave me fallin' from grace
Life will come and go so fast
You’ll forget all of your past
When maybe it’s not up to chance
Who will finish, who will pass
Throwin' my fist to make it last
The shit that took all that i had
With know one left that cant be mad
A swift retreat is all we have
Because when love is good for nothing
Is when your love is just for you
Whoo hoo!
D D7 G Gm D A A7
It’s not like me to make complaints
Eventually it goes my way
being able to relate
Is what gets me through these days
I’d love to laugh, I’d love to smile
But too many reasons to hold out
when its about bein' proud
Suggest you shut your fuckin mouth
Because when love is good for nothing
Is when your love is just for you
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A stranger with a knife your insidious
I’m not just sayin it, fear abandon
A noxious assailant, been to hell and back
A foolish indifference, I’ll be there again
A non recipient, feeling urgency
It might have been you, unseen harmony
A nihilists gift a curse feeded into you
If I had been asked first and knowones enemy
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Unmasked and worried, man begs for mercy, but you've not since paid, so not for sale
Your life’s in danger, when fools think theyre saviors, dues left then failure, not on my time
You’ve gotta be twisted, to think it’s resisting, but your mind is made up, wrong or right
Judge and a jury, system is falling, youth hears a calling, hearts on fire
March on all sides, speaking their minds, about damn time, you see through mine
Em G
Am C
Your imagination, I'm not Your savior, not here for savin', selfish unsavory, im just fine
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Letting Go
04:53
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Fed up with learning my lessons
Maybe you’re all that I’m missin’,
Grown to fear, know when to listen,
Hope to God, pray to the heavens,
I don’t want it, but here we go
It’s my mission to ward letting go.
Oh, letting go
A drought in a wasteland, an ocean
Of Apathy worn like a weapon
A diet in eerie potions
Of doubt An elixir in motion
Sometimes difficult knowing what’s right
It’s not too different apologizing
If you were listening then we know
It’s not a method that we chose
Animals wandering, padlocked doors
Concerns a message that we show
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Free Fall
04:02
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You wanted perfection you got self destruction
You’re armed and ready it’s just so clear
No room for the best now just give it a rest
If you wanna do that don’t involve me in it
Chemical egregious woe
If I’m valuable then you’ll never be trusted
The courageous walk and agree that it’s over
The rest we sold for a miracle
Urgencies gone far enough
Emergencies to overcome
Technically free fall
An old disease is rampant
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Change
03:41
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Sweet memory
Good to know that we have it in us
Smile after we all weep
In letting go, show them we can handle change
Provoking change
So, you thought we were all weak
We’ve had enough, say bye bygone habits
Before we go, you better believe
It’s criminal only when we can’t imagine change
Good company
Has been repeating
In memory
Just so that we embodied
Change
No longer chained
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One Whore's Town
06:04
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She broke my guitar in three pieces
So i guess ill have it checked but the cars gone
Now im packin all my things cause she left me
All alone in the dirt with a dead dog
A E
The tv and diamond ring, heads out the door
Mamas leavin, kiss of death leaves me floored
D A A7 E
So while im actin' hurt i get messy
Alcohol, and the pearls of the gods
All thats left in the world thats got meaning
cause that gets me the girls from day one
Shes two timing ya shes tryin to blame me
Cause shes hiding ya she hides her feelings
Now my life, it burns in shackles by in large
From a girl, whose already garbage
None relate so burned in shambles and led-on
Of a world 🌍f fallin' forget me nots
Now im driving real high flyin' bursting
Im alive ya so denyin' of me
Wheeeeee!!
A A7 D D7 E E7
Now im dyin, but im dead just for you
Ya im tired and on fire, burnt through
Little birdy, ensure my will when i am gone
Down the big black and steady free fall
Just a bare, beloved phantom fathoms
Unafraid of what is last yet to come
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Unbound in USA
04:06
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Ive returned the way
But youre not the same
So i seek holiday
From youre busy ways
Diamond sapphire, youre angry and so am i
She chokes, i smile, youre angry so i write
Dont you dig, no escape
Youre covered in it, unbound in USA
So far, who can ignore?
What you see, with your emotions?
Inveterate, im back from the state
Sobered up for 600 days
Ive seen the light, You make me feel so alive
Never meant to give up, dont know how to make it stop
Dont you dig, no escape
Youre covered in it, unbound in USA
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*bonerz trak
00:47
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Insipid lecherous wisdom folly of the earth sky cracks insane poltice chariot effervescent inscription
Loud prayer stumbles in thoughts stains in the theatre preset thoroughfair abyss in misguided approaches
Throne to reign the seeping collage, iron trowel expels lowly disfigured crowns, ignominious swallows set
Forth bold call settles leech left trail assumes policy swindle
Proud excrete foul brandish waves of poor blamed agnostic cries gold entreats flaunted brow trial of conquest preaches laughter total annihilation pregnant thoughts. Solved crawl creeps cowel lively exchange traps crane
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James Peter Pham Carroll Irvine, California
I started taking piano lessons at 7. At 10, I started writing songs. At 14, I got my first guitar. As a teenager and into my
late 20's, I played in bands. From my late 20's to my 40's, I've been a solo musician; sometimes as "Lamposts". All of my artistic skills are primarily self taught.
98% of this music was written, performed, recorded and mixed by me. All artwork and photography is original.
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